A fellow support group member posted this week, “if you fail to plan, you plan to fail,” and that has basically summed up my jumpstart. I feel like I’m either doing really well and feel great, or I’m crashing and burning; no in between. And this is all due to a lack of planning.
This past week was a mixture of the above. I had a bumpy start; I indulged in some sugary treats at an event last weekend and that trickled into after work snacking on Monday and Tuesday, and I was miserable. I was disappointed that after such a great week of feeling good and watching the scale move that I would let myself fall off the wagon. So I posted my thoughts and failure on the accountability group, and moved forward. The rest of the week was strong, and I was happy to be back on track.
All of this really is fascinating; the whole feeling great and doing well isn’t enough to keep myself from diverting so easily. As I was thinking about what to write here early this morning, I was vigorously scratching the eczema on my hands. So why isn’t the fact that a change in diet could make that disappear enough to stay on track? Why isn’t loosing weight enough? Or feeling great enough? Well of course it all is; and it has to be an all or nothing situation.
I’ve been addicted to junk for too long there can’t be a back and forth. This is a lifestyle change for a reason, and I need to wrap my head around that. I know what the junk food lifestyle got me; extra weight, mood swings and raw itchy hands. I’m ready to leave that behind. I want to be the one posting my before and after photos and telling my success story.
To be honest, I was hoping to have great photos to share at the end of my six weeks, and I’d talk about this life changing journey; and I will. Just not yet. My roads’ had a few more left turns than I was hoping for, but I know I’ll get there soon.