I lived most of my life in Nevada. I remember as a teen, it would be fun to drive to Hoover Dam. The border of Arizona and Nevada crossed the dam. It was fun to straddle the line and say I was in two places at one time. This would define my week. I have been straddling the line between ETL and SAD.
I know that I cannot have one foot in and one foot out. This really needs to be my way of life. I prepared my food this week. I ate breakfast and lunch on plan. Nights were when I struggled. Truthfully, I didn’t have my head in the game from the start of the week. It was parent teacher conference week, and I knew I would have late nights and dinner provided. My daughter is home from college, and I had to get her to her therapy this week, and the pattern in the past has been that she wants me to buy her dinner.
I seem to me chasing the magic. Here have been reasons I have used in the past as to when I should start, or why I should wait to get back to eating right.
- The longest I was successful eating ETL was when I started on Feb. 9th, so I will start on the 9th of whatever the next month is.
- I will start on Monday. Monday comes, I blow it and wait until the next Monday.
- Elisha has a journaling challenge. That will kick me into gear.
- My son had been serving a Christian Service Mission and was returning soon, so I wanted to be thinner. That will be the magic cure!
- I am afraid of my cholesterol numbers and the pain I have from inflammation, and I am afraid of dying. That works for a while.
Sound familiar? The list could go on. I am always chasing the “magic.” There will always be an excuse or event that prevents me from eating for health. This needs to be a way of life. It is hard to unlearn fifty plus years of habits and coping. I am still on a journey, hopefully not a journey to death.
My action plan at the end of this week has been to review my Six Week Game Plan calendar sheet. I have reviewed my “why’s.” I will read those several times each day. They are in my phone, and I can pull them up at weak times.
I printed my terrible cholesterol blood work from August and put the numbers in my calendar/planner that I carry with me everywhere as a reminder. I have reread the cholesterol information from Fuhrman and Esselstyn. I am freaked out by the information and cannot avoid it anymore, so I guess I will use the “scared straight” method this week.