My ETL journey begins with the death of my beloved dad. It was hard on me to watch my dad suffer from health problems including Congestive Heart Failure, Type 2 Diabetes and Cognitive Decline. While my dad was in Hospice Care, I started researching Dr. Fuhrman’s Eat to Live book and explored Facebook resources. I did not want what happened to my dad, to happen to me! I watched endless health documentaries, like Forks over Knives and Hungry for Change. During this research phase, I was not committed to ETL but I was very interested in the Whole Foods Plant Based lifestyle.
My disordered eating began back in my teenage years. During most of these years, I suffered from the eating disorders Anorexia and Bulimia. During my 20s, I switched instead to numbing my feelings with food and overeating. Food was my therapy of choice. I turned to the comfort of food whenever I was stressed, emotional, hurt, or angry. I used any excuse to eat. I would easily be the winner in an ice cream eating contest. I would eat a HUGE bowl of ice cream mindlessly. My late night emotional eating binges and secret eating packed on the pounds!
My doctor has given me the official diagnosis that I am pre-diabetic. Before my ETL journey began, I drank cup after cup of coffee. I was tired all the time and I often took naps to make it through the day. I had back pain and my legs and knees hurt. I was depressed. I wasn’t sleeping well and I had trouble physically going up the stairs at the end of the day. I tell myself I am shy and an introvert. Deep down I don’t believe this. I believe it is this heavy blanket of weight that I am carrying that makes me uncomfortable and is holding me back.
On July 29, 2017, a month after my dad died, I watched Elisha Lee’s personal story on Eat to Live Daily. Her life mirrored my own life in many ways and it truly resonated with me. It all came together in this one life changing moment…my past, my dad’s death and my new life. This is the moment that changed my life forever! Being Nutritarian made complete sense to me. So, that day I had my symbolic “last meal” of delicious and somewhat nauseating Texas BBQ chicken wings. I have not eaten meat since that day.
I live in a house with SAD (Standard American Diet) food and I must navigate resisting these foods on a daily basis. I am 45 years old and a wife and mother of two. My family is non-Nutritarian. My husband has made several changes toward healthy eating but is not fully committed to Nutritarian at this point. I stand 5 feet 10 inches tall and as of January 1, 2018, I weigh 185 pounds. I have lost over 20 pounds since starting my ETL journey.
Currently, I am struggling with consistency of eating Nutritarian. I have had a bumpy road. I started off strong but emotions and food addictions got in the way and I fell off track repeatedly. I continue to have good days and bad days. I want food to stop controlling me. My focus for the new year is to get to a healthy weight by eating Nutritarian more consistently with no snacking. I am grateful for the body I have but I want to feel comfortable in my own skin. Thank you for “listening”.