… And then she fell!
I should have known that it would come. But I was determined to stay positive!
Lack of organisation during week two threw me around a bit. After a stressful weekend at the end of week one, I let my head take charge and I got complacent. Instead of being vigilant about my own needs, meal planning and ensuring I was totally organised for my meals for the week and following Elisha’s plan to the tee, I fell victim to my head, emotions and stress. And that was my downfall. So I’m hitting the books again this week to get back to basics.
The good news is that I didn’t deviate too far from the plan. But I did deviate. Full stop! It was a real reminder that I need the plan. At this point in my journey, I need to stick to Elisha’s meals as she has set out, and not trust myself to pull something together at the last minute which I think “should be okay”! The feeling of being totally unorganised was stressful for me, and that on top of my emotional weekend, was enough to make me feel completely useless and unworthy of achieving my goals. The head game that ensues from that point onwards has been my dark hole for so many years and it was messy being back in that head space after such an awesome week last week.
I didn’t eat as many raw salads in week two as I did the first week. I stuck with my smoothie for breakfast every morning – even my green sludge looking thing – but I am so in love with smoothies for breakfast! They fit in so well with my work load with my children in the morning and they keep me full and energised until lunch time. But being so unorganised and putting my evening meals last in line whilst preparing seperate meals for my husband and children, meant I made myself several throw together whatever I can vegetable curry type dishes with rice noodles that were quick and easy (and comforting), but not on the plan. I only lost 1 kilogram (2.2 pounds) this week, which is still amazing for me, but I know I could have lost more if I had stuck to the meal plan and eaten more “salads as the main meal” as Dr Fuhrman says. My total loss so far is 2.5 kilograms (5.5 pounds) and I am still happy with that!
What I learned this week is that I am definitely not ready to go this way of eating alone. And really, after one week, of course I wouldn’t be! My week two was a steep learning curve, but a good reminder about staying on plan until I have installed these new habits – hence why I need the entire six week plan to set these new habits in place. I read somewhere that new habits take at least 28 days to form so for the next four weeks, I have to be organised and on plan to make it stick! Oh, and do not run out of avocados… NEVER, EVER run out of avocados!!
Something else I realised this past week was how good my body feels when I eat loads of massive salads. I feel so light and energetic. I do need a bigger bowl for my salads though! I’m eating from a salad serving bowl or mixing bowl and it just feels weird, but a normal bowl isn’t big enough for the size of what we need to eat. It’s tricky to shake the old mindsets of eating too much food, don’t eat carbs, don’t eat this or that. And what I love so much about the ETL way of living is that we don’t need to worry about all of that! But try telling that to a head that has almost 30 years of dieting under it’s belt! It’s another bad habit that I am determined to banish.
I knew this six weeks would be tough. And I’m not even half way. But already I have learned so much about why I have been overweight and miserable. All of the emotional eating, the bad habits, the self-sabotage, the food addictions, the self-loathing – they were all built up over so many years and it’s going to take more than a day to smash them down. But piece by piece (or salad by salad) I know I can do it. I am doing it! Each day I am chipping away at it, and so long as I stay on the plan and work at changing those things, I am succeeding. But for now…. I need the plan. I’m building the strength and knowledge, just like building muscles, to get to the point of living this lifestyle on my own. But in the meantime, I’m still learning so much about myself and this way of eating, that I need all the support and encouragement I can get. And that’s totally okay!
A milestone for this week though is that a niggling discomfort I had in one foot is gone! That is so telling of what is yet to come from this way of eating. The pure power in our food straight from nature is amazing. My skin is amazingly smooth and hydrated, my eyes are brighter and whilst the scales show a total 2.5 kilogram loss (5.5 pounds), my shape is noticeably different and I’m fitting into clothes that I haven’t worn in such a long time already. Oh and my gosh, how could I forget… I am starting to see my ankles again! I’ve had “cankles” for so long, but finally I’m getting some shape back down there and the fluid in my legs and ankles is starting to disappear. Whoo hoo! Things are really changing for the better and I’m hooked!
Next week’s plan – more raw salads and stay organised! Being organised has never been my strong suit, but there’s nothing like learning the hard way! This time it really hit me where it hurts so I am determined to be more organised and stay true to Elisha’s plan.
Bring on week three!