Slip Ups & Let Down
So last week I spoke too soon. It was easy I said. Piece of cake! Yeah right. This week real life kicked in and I faced a hard dose of reality.
On Monday I returned to work after being off for over a year on maternity leave. So naturally on Sunday I was frantically getting organized and the stress started to seep in. I slipped up and grabbed my go to comfort foods to make me feel better. I probably felt better in that moment, but I also felt guilt. I knew I shouldn’t have had it and to be honest, I don’t really even know that I wanted it. It was just there and I turned my brain off and went for it. But I was determined not to let this ruin my week, which normally it would have. So I packed my lunch and was ready for the day ahead.
My first day back went well and I was prepared. Actually I’d say the first half of the week went well. I had cut veggies prepped and soup packed up for lunches. As soon as I got in the door at the end of the day I turned on the oven and chopped all my veggies to get them in quickly. Evenings are rushed, but it was ok. This is going to be the new norm moving forward.
By Thursday, my prepped food had dwindled, my tiredness was kicking in and I started to wane. I started to nibble on not-so-good foods when I got home while waiting for dinner to be ready and I definitely didn’t eat enough during the day. So I was hungry and grabbing quick things; not the right things. By Friday after work, I had nothing ready and the old, “well, it’s the weekend” mentality was slipping in.
In my carb eating, caffeine laden days (which wasn’t that long ago) I ate mindlessly and all of the time. My mouth took over and I didn’t think about what I was doing until I weighed myself that week and felt guilt for the choices I’d made. But over the past few weeks I’ve started listening to my brain and being conscious of what I’m putting in my mouth; and I think the fact that I didn’t listen to that voice is what disappoints me the most. This time I knew I shouldn’t have been doing it, and I didn’t want to, but it did anyways. But I’m not giving up.
I picked up my groceries yesterday and today I am going to prep for the week ahead; and I’m going to prep smarter. This week I’m going to try to stay more to the meal plan so I’m not wondering, what’s for dinner tonight? I may be a little down, but I’m not out.