I’ve always been the type of person who is singularly focused. Beyond not being a great multi-tasker (like, awful) – I’ve always done best when I have one thing in my life that I’m primarily devoting my energy and attention to. I’ve accepted that about myself and instead of fighting it, I’m a little quicker to embrace it than I might have been in the past. I knew this six-week jumpstart would be a major focus for the duration – but, wow, I am shocked at just how much it has dominated my life for the first two weeks!
All ETL All Day
When I sit down to lunch at work (which I have to do in our small conference room so my crunching doesn’t annoy half of our open office), I sit down with my Jumpstart binder. I go through materials and see what I’m going to be making for dinner that night…check out the recipe so I’m a little more familiar when I get home…look at what I’m going to be prepping for lunch the next day….and, as the week nears an end, I’m printing the next weeks materials and reviewing those. Nights are taken over by making dinner, prepping lunch and breakfast and when I finally sit down – I try to catch up on the Facebook Accountability posts & see if I missed anything. Then the weekend is seeing what’s in the fridge, prepping my shopping list, shopping & the “big prep.” My boyfriend commented that he can tell I’m just getting from one moment to the next, right now.
I know this will get better. I know once I settle into a routine & get more comfortable, I can make room for other things again. I was getting my 10,000 steps before the jumpstart, but I just made the decision to let it go for a minute. I know I will start FEELING better on top of adjusting to this style of prepping/eating & I can worry about introducing steps back in, then. For now – I’m DOING THIS. I am going to nail this six-week jumpstart. This is my goal. The rest will come.
Feeling the stress of it all
One thing I did realize this week is that in this ever-so-deep rabbit hole I’ve jumped into, I’m taking it a little far in some areas. Since the program started, I haven’t gotten to sleep before 12:30-1:30 am. This is probably a good hour-to-two hours later than usual for me. I think this is contributing to my feeling so overwhelmed and dominated by having to fit in all the elements of the jumpstart. I’m sleep deprived! It finally sank in that night after night I was poking around on Facebook and on the website almost obsessively while laying in bed & the time just extended on and on. Finally, one night, I was like – “alright, enough – put the phone down by 10 pm!” I’ve done a little better since then. It’s difficult, because I am so invested in everyone’s journeys, but I know I need to draw a line.
All of the challenges of this week have also made me realize just how lucky I am in how much support I’ve had. The group, our journaling team, Elisha’s constant interaction – it has made this whole experience so different and amazing, so far. Just being able to reach out and have such instantaneous reassurance and validation is really grounding. The accountability and the feeling of having so much more at stake has been powerful for me.
My Support System
I have two people at home who are stars this week, but this week I really need to talk about my amazing boyfriend : ). He’s a 6’4” 250 lb. concrete finisher who has been known to have deep fried gas station ravioli and a giant Red Bull for breakfast at 4:00 am. I know. He loves fruit but hates vegetables and can’t eat nuts. Even though he can’t even fathom eating how I do….as with everything else in my life, he is so aware of me and so supportive. He doesn’t mind that this rabbit hole has been so deep I’ve barely poked my head out to say hi. He does our dishwasher every single day & washes and puts away pans I was too tired to wash from the night before. He asks me what he can do and how he can help constantly. Last week, when he was off work because of weather, he surprised me with a brand new copper skillet and ceramic knives, because he heard me coveting them out loud. He went to the store two separate times to get me more plastic mason jar lids. I mean….how does a girl get so lucky?! I could not have gotten through these first two weeks without him. My fruit lover even taught me how to peel down a grapefruit into sections and peel each section open to eat. OMG. We make a little project of our fruit dessert every night after dinner and I love every second of it.
I got a little frustrated this week because while I continued to follow the jumpstart meal plans almost exactly (except adding tofu to the stir fry and having plain fruit for dessert) – no cheats, no snacks – my progress really stalled out. But, what I suspected was confirmed by Elisha – basically, my water weight loss is turning into true weight loss & my body is adjusting. I suppose I should be happy to hold onto an over-8-lb weight loss in 5 days, lol, but alas, I felt greedy!! I am staying the course. I am down from my starting weight of 145.3 to – 135.6 – a 9.7 lb. weight loss!
Looking forward to another week. Happy Journey, friends!