I must say this has been a very interesting journey thus far. It seems to have definitely become about changing my mindset first before I am able to become successful on this ETL journey. I am learning to tell myself that “just this once” really DOES matter and so I don’t cheat. For example, in weeks past, I would cheat on chicken wings. They have been my go to cheat food. Now I find that I can have Buffalo Cauliflower Bites when I want chicken wings and it does take the craving away completely. I actually seem to prefer the Buffalo Cauliflower Bits instead. AND I am finding I prefer healthy snacks over some of the SAD snacks I used to eat. For example, instead of cheese puffs, popcorn, etc, I now snack on baked apple with cinnamon – IF I do snack. (Still working on not snacking at all)
Another thing I have learned is that I CAN tolerate hunger. I always thought I had to eat when I was hungry because I am diabetic. But since I am trying to fast between dinner at 5pm and breakfast at around 8 or 9 am (so I can follow the no snacking rule), my numbers are actually much better. While admittedly, it still isn’t easy to not snack after dinner and before bedtime, I am starting to succeed more often than not at this point. As I said before, I am still working on not snacking at all. So I consider this to be a HUGE success as far as I am concerned. This has been a habit my entire life. I am just beginning to feel hope that I can win this battle eventually.
As I mentioned last week, I am trying to put alternatives into place for when life hits me hard. This used to drive me to comfort myself with food. But in putting alternatives in place, I have found that I now have a consistent exercise plan in place. I now do my nails when I watch TV instead of snacking. Amazingly enough, this has helped me deal with stress so much better overall. I certainly didn’t think with all the stuff I have on my plate right now, with getting the house ready to sell, taking care of my elderly father, wedding plans etc. that I could ever fit in exercise. But I did and it is helping immensely! So score one for me. Yay!
My goal for this upcoming week is to learn to recognize the difference between toxic hunger and real hunger. I want to also learn how to eat until I am satisfied but not too full. Additionally, another goal I have for this week is simply realize it is NOT just about the scale. I can’t believe I have only lost about 3-4 pounds in what 5 weeks! However, I can say that I have dropped a size or two. My clothes are fitting a little looser. Like I said before, this six week journey seems to be more about internal changes – changing habits, changing the way I see myself, think about food, starting an exercise plan, learning how to distinguish between toxic hunger and true hunger, focusing on health rather than the scale and so much more. I really believe I can succeed at this even though it may very well take longer than this one six week challenge. All of these lessons are becoming an internal part of me and THAT is what will enable me to be successful in the long run.
Ironically, the biggest challenge I have had this week is getting to eat the food I have prepared. My fiancé really loves the dishes I have made as well. I have made the Alfredo sauce on veggies, the Peanut Sauce over veggies and the Coconut Curry over veggies. I am lucky if I get any (not quite) as he eats them up too and then steals them for his lunches for work as well.
He has always been perfectly content having cereal for breakfast, bean soup for lunch and a baked potato for dinner. But since I cook this way nowadays, he scarfs it down. It always seems like WAY too many vegetables when I come home from the grocery store. I guess we just have to get used to the amount of veggies I have to buy and cook for the both of us to eat this way. I am so blessed that he is on this journey with me. He of course has lost weight and does not even need to. That is probably my biggest frustration. I am trying everything I can to lose and he lose without effort on his part. But at least we are both eating very healthy. I have realized this is indeed a marathon and not just a sprint. However, I won’t lie….I am so looking forward to the next six week journey when hopefully it does lead to actual weight loss. lol
Talk to you next week.